Basically I'm Gay

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  • Published: 13 June 2019
  • Let me tell you a queer little story about a boy named Dan.
    Follow me online to see the rest of my tale as it unfolds in real time:
    http://twitter.com/danielhowell
    http://instagram.com/danielhowell
    http://facebook.com/danisnotonfire
    And subscribe to my channel! http://www.youtube.com/subscription_center?add_user=danisnotonfire (lol)

    Content warning: this video contains far too much strong language and discussions of general sexuality, discriminatory language, bullying and an attempt on my own life. Otherwise totally appropriate for education, instilling good values in young children and my grandma who I will expect a disappointed text from.

    Special thanks to http://youtube.com/AmazingPhil for production assistance.

    Art by Hector aka https://twitter.com/swatercolour

    Soundtrack:

    Handel - Messiah
    Camille Saint-Saëns - Danse Macabre
    Tchaikovsky - 1812 Overture
    Chopin - Fantasie Impromptu
    Schubert - Ave Maria

    Additional Music by Kevin Macleod http://incompetech.com

    Disclaimer - This video is just a starting point for me, what I felt was the bare minimum (ha) required for me to get this out there so I can move forward with my life, a mix of explanation, justification and opinion. It scratched the surface of several things I could have gone into more detail about, but the purpose of this was to be ..reasonably concise and above all entertaining. In the future, in the right places, I will surely talk much more about everything touched on in this video and more. It’s also likely that something will get misunderstood or misrepresented, perhaps from the way I phrased things or people assuming my thoughts on things that I didn’t specify. Also my story is just the truth of what happened to me and what I thought at certain points of time in my environment, good and bad - of course not my opinions today. So JUST to be clear my opinion on general sexual and gender identities are that everyone is valid and deserves equal rights and the freedom to exist. The only thing I don’t tolerate is intolerance. Cheers to an inevitable bright future, either because people become nice and the old people die or the sun explodes first lmao.

    Some resources and charities for anyone who needs support or wants to learn more:

    https://youngminds.org.uk/
    https://www.samaritans.org/
    https://papyrus-uk.org/
    https://www.stonewall.org.uk/
    https://www.hrc.org/
    http://www.thetrevorproject.org/
    https://www.trevorspace.org/
    https://switchboard.lgbt/
    http://minus18.org.au/
    http://www.glaad.org/transgender
    https://www.mermaidsuk.org.uk/
  • Fun Fun

Comments • 126 169

  • Ella McLaughlin
    Ella McLaughlin  1 hours back

    Dan, please come back. I know it’s probably hard right now but 6.6 MILLION people need u right now

    • Yacoop Sofe
      Yacoop Sofe  3 hours back

      ok

      • Tania Laura
        Tania Laura  3 hours back

        this made my day

        • LordMcSwagTache - sh*tposts

          Why on earth does this have 45k dislikes?

        • x Itz Leila x
          x Itz Leila x  5 hours back

          I wasted 45 minutes of my life on this....

          • Chloe _07
            Chloe _07  6 hours back

            A month later I’m still sobbing?...A month after watching He comes back to making me cry 😂 I’m so sorry but I swear to god as if you haven’t had this enough but I am incredibly proud of you and I hope you know there are a lot of people out there that love you. ❤️🌈 can’t wait for the next vid take you time you deserve it after feeding us this masterpiece x

            • Laurynn Kraemer
              Laurynn Kraemer  9 hours back

              Time Stamps

              ❤️ Chapter One - The Word 2:08
              🧡 Chapter Two - Feelings 9:35
              💛 Chapter Three - Internalized Oppression 16:50
              💚 Chapter Four - Labels 31:52
              💙 Chapter Five - Fear 38:57
              💜 The End 45:09

              • give this weeb some oxiJIN

                i'm so sorry on behalf of all those people who made you afraid of being who you are, Dan. Bless you with only the best from here on. <3

                • Its a kind of Queen
                  Its a kind of Queen  11 hours back

                  9:07 literally every wattpad ever

                  • Unknown
                    Unknown  11 hours back

                    "Wow that me"

                    • RandomStuff Studios
                      RandomStuff Studios  11 hours back

                      Thank you for putting into words how I feel when it comes to my gender identity. I always thought the whole "formless blob" thing was dumb, but you made me feel less alone, thanks :)

                      • charlotte
                        charlotte  15 hours back

                        I feel like 18:55 was an unintentional book of mormon reference

                        • brenpineapples
                          brenpineapples  16 hours back

                          I’ve watched this shit 6 times omfg I wish I had this when I was 12 😭🏳️‍🌈

                          • Courtland Tapp
                            Courtland Tapp  16 hours back

                            Wow, love you

                            • Miah Vasquez
                              Miah Vasquez  18 hours back

                              I can hook you up if you wany

                            • Madi Day
                              Madi Day  19 hours back

                              Thank you

                              • Peyton Saunders
                                Peyton Saunders  20 hours back

                                Oh my god, serotonin-deficiency wave is my favorite too.

                                • Shawn Flores
                                  Shawn Flores  21 hours back

                                  “Peaked at 5 in every way” BITCH ME TOO

                                  • suzanna
                                    suzanna  22 hours back

                                    Yes im watching this again
                                    yes i cant help it
                                    and yes im going to laugh/cry through the entire thing
                                    ..again..

                                    • :D
                                      :D  1 days back

                                      My eyes are dry yet??

                                      • L!zzy R0se
                                        L!zzy R0se  1 days back

                                        Why would you g note me/ play welcome to the black parade, why my emo heart can't take this T-T

                                        I'm sorry this seems besides the point

                                        • victoria
                                          victoria  1 days back

                                          I love u biiiitchhh fuck

                                          • Elle
                                            Elle  1 days back

                                            brilliant video. i loved every second of it

                                            • Elle
                                              Elle  1 days back

                                              the part about wanting humanity to be eradicated
                                              that me af

                                              • Lilac Goldpetal sketch

                                                4:00 literally me 🤣

                                                • Tamik
                                                  Tamik  1 days back

                                                  I've been waiting so long for u too aploud *i can't spell* and this video made me happier and sad at the same time

                                                  • Frick
                                                    Frick  1 days back

                                                    “Bisexualé”

                                                    • Maria Foust
                                                      Maria Foust  1 days back

                                                      So proud of you❤❤

                                                      • Undead Gaijin
                                                        Undead Gaijin  1 days back

                                                        Big shocked face

                                                        • Fuvy
                                                          Fuvy  1 days back

                                                          *Fanfiction wants to know your location*

                                                          • Cinnamon Panda
                                                            Cinnamon Panda  1 days back

                                                            I knew, and I wanted to date the guy 🐈...but he said he wasnt so.

                                                            • Cinnamon Panda
                                                              Cinnamon Panda  1 days back

                                                              Oh so he had this idea and thats why he was in such denial

                                                          • whitecraayon
                                                            whitecraayon  1 days back

                                                            saw it coming but... ahhhhhhhhhhhh. anyway, i love you dan!!!!

                                                            • omaiow
                                                              omaiow  2 days back

                                                              So that 2020 wedding is gonna happen

                                                              • scarjst
                                                                scarjst  2 days back

                                                                this is the first time I cry watching one of your videos

                                                                • Logan Bloo Hoodie
                                                                  Logan Bloo Hoodie  2 days back

                                                                  Like we ain’t know

                                                                • crispy celery
                                                                  crispy celery  2 days back

                                                                  When your family asks why you dont have a girlfriend

                                                                  • Tenisha Reniewick
                                                                    Tenisha Reniewick  2 days back

                                                                    Dan, I am so happy for you and you feeling good about yourself. The ones that support you have always wanted you to be happy. You should be happy being you and not give a shit what anyone has to say about it. You be who you are and as for anyone that does want to be in the know, that is your business and yours only. You deserve your privacy and you owe no one an explanation. Love you and you will always have my support <3

                                                                    • Scottish
                                                                      Scottish  2 days back

                                                                      Daniel you really 27 .

                                                                      • sunnyside crying
                                                                        sunnyside crying  2 days back

                                                                        Me watching this video multiple times to pass time

                                                                        • extremelyhappysimmer
                                                                          extremelyhappysimmer  2 days back

                                                                          so is phil his boyfriend? the fan girls were right all along!! dan x phil is canon now!!

                                                                          • j o c y
                                                                            j o c y  7 hours back

                                                                            🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

                                                                          • Lyanna Grace
                                                                            Lyanna Grace  17 hours back

                                                                            That's not at all what he meant. I feel bad for you if this is the only thing you gained from this video

                                                                        • TheTea
                                                                          TheTea  2 days back

                                                                          Now Shane’s dream can come true

                                                                          • Twocheslch
                                                                            Twocheslch  2 days back

                                                                            Bro, u got a green light on it face? Was that intentional? Is there a green screen behind u? Are u ok?

                                                                            • j o c y
                                                                              j o c y  7 hours back

                                                                              Omg do u not realize this video has chapters and each chapter he has a light on his face and it makes a pride flag

                                                                            • Shira Schwarts
                                                                              Shira Schwarts  1 days back

                                                                              Throughout the video he had the lights make a rainbow on his face

                                                                          • Elizabeth Balas
                                                                            Elizabeth Balas  2 days back

                                                                            this video is amazing dan omg

                                                                            • glabnar the viewer
                                                                              glabnar the viewer  2 days back

                                                                              Honestly i felt this

                                                                              • Aflicted Ana
                                                                                Aflicted Ana  2 days back

                                                                                I’ve watched this 45 MINUTE VIDEO like 8 times when I’m feeling low, it’s so nice relating to someone that I’ve looked up to for years. Seeing Dan be okay after so much trauma helps me see that maybe I will be okay in the future as well... anyway Thanks Dan for making me feel better I love you so much

                                                                                • Weizenkaltschale
                                                                                  Weizenkaltschale  2 days back

                                                                                  Hey Dan, thank you alot for this video!
                                                                                  Also im honestly pretty shocked that there are still people that deem being *insert anything that a human can be* as "unnatural".
                                                                                  Isnt the fact that there is a human that is whatever they deem to be unnatural pretty much proving that it is natural ? *thinking*
                                                                                  Anyways, great video that helped me a lot in hoperfully someday breaking out of my specific shackles.

                                                                                  • Waddles The pig
                                                                                    Waddles The pig  2 days back

                                                                                    I kinda had to rewatch the video cause I spent the most of it staring Into his jacket

                                                                                    • Ember Steele
                                                                                      Ember Steele  2 days back

                                                                                      Dan.... I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOVE YOU!!!